Good thing about days off is it gives you time to think.
And I realized in some ways, I’ve been a terrible friend.
Because of my issues, I’ve closed myself off from people. I don’t chat much anymore, and I don’t care to leave my house. If people talk to me, I’m more then happy to chat. If people invite me places, I’m more then happy to go. And I do invite my friends places, even if sometimes they say no, but the point is that I don’t ask as often as I could.
And I complain way too much, and until recently, was doing nothing to get help for myself. My friends can only listen, and it’s hard to listen and help someone else, when one has problems of their own. I should have known this, I’ve been there myself.
I need to work on putting myself out there more. I’m afraid to, and I shouldn’t be.
i always think “if people want to talk to me they will” which is my reasoning for never really starting conversations so i’m permanently thinking no one wants to talk but what if they’re sat there thinking the same and it’s just this cycle of silence that never gets broken because i’m too stubborn to just put myself out there